Public Exposure

Just a quickie post to let you know what’s on my mind. I was very excited yesterday to find that I have managed to whittle my unanswered emails down to less than 500! Sorry again for leaving so many of you hanging during my disappearing act. The messages I get are very important to me and I’ve always tried to respond to them all (except the ones that amount to little more than “Hi, send me a picture of your pussy”). I wouldn’t say I’m offended by these kinds of eMails, I understand the motivation behind it, but it feels a little like the writer is saying that what I’m already giving up of myself isn’t enough and that I owe him more. I guess I can’t let it bother me, it’s all part of the smut peddler’s life I chose.

On the flip side, I have gotten a wonderful crop of dick pics since I announced my return! I continue to be mystified by women who denigrate the unsolicited dick pic. I find them to be a lovely treat that brightens my day. Then again, I suppose I’m sorta asking for it. I’ve also received a couple of private wife/gf photos, which are also fun for me to see. I get a wicked thrill being privy to naughty pics of real people that I’m not supposed to be seeing. Anyway, just wanted to let all my dick pic-ers to know I appreciate the gesture and if getting me turned on by exposing yourself (and your loved ones) was your goal, then mission accomplished!

Speaking of public exposure, getting back in the porn game after so long away, and getting a flood of very encouraging responses, has reminded me of why I got into writing porn in the first place. The excitement I feel about being back in the mindset of creating filthy stories from my perverted ideas is driven in large part by my fervent yearning to publicly expose myself. I have fantasies of literally exposing myself: giving a man a peek up my skirt on the train, flashing a tit to an unsuspecting college student passing by, or bending over and giving a nice old man a show. But, it seems, I’m far too unadventurous to actually do these things. It was a big challenge for me just to walk around the mall back home showing a generous amount of cleavage (arousing, yet still scary).

However, what I can do without fear, is publicly expose myself through my writing. All the nasty thoughts, taboo fantasies, and socially unacceptable impulses that have manifested in my brain since I hit puberty had always been a source of some degree of shame for me. I always thought I was weird, or abnormal, or disgusting for thinking the kinds of things I did. And not only did I think them, but I got turned on by them. And not only did I get turned on by them, I fingered myself constantly to these deviant thoughts. There were times I felt like a freakish sex monster (not that this stopped me from playing with myself in the dark).

Now, as you know, I am able to embrace my inner sex monster and find a certain degree of comfort with it. No, I’m not acting these things out in real life (like many of you are brave enough to do), but being able to put my aberrant thoughts down on “paper” then share them with the world is a huge thrill for me. Not only admitting that I have these kinds of thoughts, but being able to express them to others, has turned out to be an amazing outlet for me. The validation I get when I hear from people who like what I do, and even tell me I helped them cum, is a gift that I can’t put a high enough value on.

So while you won’t see me out on the street spreading my legs any time soon, I want to offer my most sincere thanks for allowing me to expose myself to you in my own special way! It truly is a privilege that I hope I never lose.

13 thoughts on “Public Exposure

  1. Sorry, Guys – I can’t figure out how to turn comments on for everyone. Arrg, how is it that the “updates” that kinky-blogging did made everything worse!?! Hopefully I’ll work this crap out soon…

  2. As a dedicated follower of your wonderful brand of smut, I registered on WordPress just so I could comment on posts here. Keep up the great work Rachael!

    Alaska Marty

  3. Do you carry a notebook/journal and writing utensil when you’re out and about? Never know when the literary exposure might happen!

  4. Honestly, hearing about the workings of your deviant mind is a huge thrill. Especially when you describe what horny little youngster you were.

  5. @AKsavage: OMG! Thanks so much for going to the trouble of signing up so you can comment! One of my original goals was to make my blog as much like a community as I could, and allowing everyone to comment and participate in discussions is a major part of that. I don’t know how or why things changed while I was away, but if I can’t open my site up to all comers (and cummers) then it kind of defeats the purpose. Like I said, I’ll keep plinking away with what little tech skills I have and see if I can get us back where we started at the very least. Mwah!

  6. @Rojodi: I’m not as good about this as I once was. I used to have these things, I think they were called Pico Notes, that were about the size of business cards and came with a micro pen. Those were handy and easy to carry. I had a brilliant idea for a Twitter post the other day while I was out, and since I didn’t write it down I had forgotten it by the time I got home! Very frustrating that the world won’t benefit from my genius as much as it could have. Sigh…

  7. @JamesDP: I’m thrilled that you’re thrilled! I think we have some kind of intellectual circle jerk happening here…woo hoo! Although, you just gave me and idea. I’ve been wanting to write a fictional erotic eNovel for a long while now, but what if I wrote something along the lines of a memoir of my sexual fantasies? It could be a collection of my teen masturbation fantasies and how these dark secrets influenced my life. Am I barking down the wrong path with this idea…?

  8. A memoir would be hawt! I still vividly recall your account of your discovery the joys of hand jobs, and your love of making your bf cum. Adding in your young fantasies would be great.

  9. Rachael:

    An ebook chapbook – a collection of short stories – would be great!

  10. I should add that your current fantasies could be part of the mix too. You talking about exposing yourself in public made my cock stand right up, so maybe include those..?

  11. @JamesDP – Great idea! I’m going to have to hurry up and write this before Thought Crimes are officially made a thing. I’ll end up being Public Enemy #69! Although, I’d probably get a lot of good story ideas from spending some time in a prison for female sex-offenders…

  12. I had forgotten about Kamster. She is very hot and I can see why you cum to her. I cum to her as well.
    My cock salutes you!

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