A Little Masturbatory Navel-Gazing

After I posted the link to the Whore video about a month ago, I got a great email from Pipi, a devoted reader, dirty caption contributor, and all around hornball. She loved the video as much as I (and many of you) did, and in her message she went into detail about what turned her on. This got me thinking about the videos that get me off.

Why do some vids get me so turned on that I have to make myself cum while watching? I never thought about it much beyond my simple animal responses. But there has to be more to it than that. I might watch 5 or 6 porn clips before I hit one that pushes my button. What does that last one have that sets it apart from the others?

With that in mind, I thought I might do what Pipi did and take a closer look at the videos that I’ve made myself cum to and breakdown what it is that gets me so aroused. I’ve learned a lot about myself by exploring my fantasies in my stories, and I’m hoping that I can perhaps discover even more by analyzing my porno preferences. I’m also hoping that this self-indulgent exercise proves to be interesting enough to others to make it a recurring subject for future posts.

The video I selected (for no particular reason) is My Sweet Polish Wife and Toy at XHamster. The first thing it has going for it is that it’s an amateur video. Although I sometimes enjoy professional stuff, I usually gravitate to homemade videos when I’m in the mood to diddle myself. I find real people having sex (alone or with others) much more interesting. I was always aware that one of the reasons is that it appeals to my voyeuristic side and plays into my longing to see what other people are doing behind closed doors. But, as I think about it now, I realize that there’s something more.

When it’s real people filming their real sex, there’s a good chance that their excitement and pleasure is genuine. The professionals and paid “amateurs” are putting on a show. Sure they might be enjoying it, but I can never really know. Real people record their sex because it turns them on. On top of that, they’re doing what they do in the video because they truly want to get off (or at least get their partner off). Yes, they could also be faking it, but the motivation to do so isn’t the same as when the script demands that a character cums on cue. So, knowing that the people I’m watching are legitimately aroused, and kinky enough to do what they’re doing on camera, is what sets amateur homemade vids apart for me.

“Sweet Polish Wife” is a hidden spy video, and it looks believable to me. I get annoyed with “hidden” videos that are obviously staged. I shouldn’t condone these sorts of vids because they are a huge violation of someone’s privacy, but at the same time they are very appealing to my voyeuristic compulsions. I love seeing people being naturally sexual when they don’t know they’re on camera. It’s as close as I’ve ever come to spying on someone for real.

We start with a nice, middle-aged lady with her hand down her pants. I like it already! She’s watching some type of porn video on TV, which only adds to her attractiveness. Only a few seconds in, she’s stripping off her sweat pants and fetching her naughty toy from under the bed. Great for building the anticipation! This seemingly mundane activity really enhances the excitement for me.

She lubes up her dildo, and at the 0:45 mark, she sits on the edge of the bed and works the toy into her pussy. You can’t see much, but I love the way she’s looking down between her legs as she begins fucking herself. One of my favorite treats while I’m having sex with my hubby is when we’re in a position where I can see his cock going in and out of me. I suppose this is why seeing her watching as she fucks herself does it for me – I know just what kind of pleasure she’s feeling at that moment. (I also like the background moans coming from the porn video, too!)

After a good minute of slowly fucking herself with the dildo, our horny lady then rolls back on the bed at 1:40. This gives me a nice thrill. I adore the position she assumes: on her back, knees up, feet in the air, legs spread. So fucking hot! It looks so inviting, like she’s offering her pussy and ass up to be fucked. We also get a much better view of her puss and that long dildo sliding in and out. It becomes clear that her toy is a vibrator as she turns it on or adjusts the speed. She’s really feeling it now!

At 3:00, she does something that sets this video apart for me. It’s been lovely up to this point, but then she grabs a small folding mirror, lies back, opens her legs and uses the mirror to look at her own cunt. Fan-fucking-tastic! I have my own narcissistic relationship with my own reflection (as I’m sure most women do), and I occasionally enjoy masturbating in front of a mirror. I admit that I feel silly about being turned on by the sight of my own naked body, but I guess that’s better than the alternative. However, I’ve never done it like this lady with a hand mirror. Something to consider…

So, why does this turn me on so frigging much? Part of it is that I’m quite certain this isn’t something that she would do in front of anyone else. We’re getting a peek into a truly private moment. Another reason is that (and I have to say I’m fairly disgusted with myself for this) I can’t help but think about how humiliated she would be (or is) at knowing she’s been exposed to the world while performing this most intimate of private acts. Not just that the world can see her masturbating her pussy, but that she’s indulging in such self-adoration with the mirror.

One more aspect is that she’s turned on by the sight of her own pussy. She’s not just rubbing one out as a quick matter of habit. She’s really into it. This lady is treating herself – first with the porno, then the toy, and now the mirror. She’s taking advantage of this time alone to maximize her pleasure with all the things that excite her. This is something she really wants, and it’s all just for her (or so she thinks).

It ends somewhat abruptly with a subdued orgasm, then her checking her pussy out from some different angles. Cute. When I first watched this video, I got to the end then went back to when she started using the mirror. I fingered myself like crazy watching her watch herself and made myself cum before getting to the end again. I’ve watched it a few times since, and each time I do so while fucking myself with my own dildo along with her. It’s like I’m feeling what she’s feeling, and I always have a great orgasm as a result.

There are a few other videos featuring this horny lady. Amateur Wife Barbara Dildo Masturbate at PornHub is short but good. We get to see her fully naked in this one, which gives us a look at those darling tits of hers. This one is more of a quickie, although I’m sure there was more “foreplay” going on before the video starts that we don’t see. Instead of lying on her back, she’s kneeling over the mirror. You can’t see her pussy, but it’s still pretty hot. I love the way her back hunches while she plays with herself in this position. Also at PornHub is Barbara from Poland Masturbate Under Dress. Here she’s fully dressed and fingering with her hand down her pants. Sexy, but not something I can get off to. The only other one I could find was My Polish Wife Masturbating and Watching Porn at XVideos. This is a night-vision type of video where she fingers herself. I like this one, too – especially her little grunts near the end when she cums.

Okay, so that ended up being longer than I expected. It turned out to be an interesting experiment for me. Please let me know if you’d like to read more of my introspective porn examinations, or if one was enough. Either way, I’d be curious to know what turns you on (or off) about the video that I looked at in this post. Thanks for listening!

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4 thoughts on “A Little Masturbatory Navel-Gazing

  1. The voyeur aspect makes the video hotter. Then again, I am just a perverted half-Pole who looked at Polish women most of my life.

  2. Now you’ve got me jacking off to wife masturbating vids. Not that I wasn’t before. I also like ‘wife in shower’ vids. Probably because I REALLY like jacking off to my wife in the shower.

  3. I totally agree that the hidden aspect of the video is authentic and soo believable. not at all like the hidden staged fakes you normally see. I had no choice but to plant 2 fingers and get myself going….gosh don’t stop….don’t stopppppp….i’mmm cummmmiknnngggg ty

  4. I am so very glad that I gave you some inspiration Rach, you have given me so many enjoyable orgasms that it is good to pay one forward :-)

    I won’t give a full review like you did, I don’t think my pussy could take it! But I would pick up on your comment about the mirror, admiring your pussy, and how most women tend to have a bit of a narcissistic relationship with their reflected image. I definitely have that streak, I remember using a hand mirror as a teenager to examine and admire my vagina as I learnt about all the pleasure I could get. Admiring my naughty (aka fun) bits is something that has been retained as a key ingredient in my sexuality, with expressions in many forms now. I also really enjoy having sex while watching us in a mirror, the roof mirrors is something that I know people think is cheesy or crass, but I LOVE them and when I go on dirty weekends with my husband it is a big perk for the the hotel room we hire (though can be hard to find). Anyway, the ‘self-voyeurism’ component of this video is probably the best part for me :-)

    Pipi xoxo

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