Dirty Daughters

I’m not really comfortable with today’s topic, but since I made the choice a year ago to include “mom” part of my pornographic online identity I feel somewhat obligated to address it. I get a lot of messages from readers who are curious about my kids, which makes me nervous to some degree, however there are some questions that I need to address (more for me than for you).

First off, I have two darling little girls: one in kindergarten and one in 2nd grade. Sexuality isn’t on their radar in any sense that I’m aware of. We’re not a nudist family, we don’t play naughty games at bath time, or anything along those lines. While I’m doing everything I can to make sure they have a “normal” childhood, I know that there are choices I’ll need to make once they’re older and have experienced the joys of puberty. Honestly, I’m a bit squeamish in thinking about my daughters’ sexuality in the future, but I know it’s something I’ll need to deal with one way or another at some point.

One thing many folks wonder about is if I intend to become intimate with my girls when they are older. The short answer is no. Of course, intentions don’t always match up with reality. As I’ve mentioned before, I find women attractive and can be as sexually aroused by a naked woman spreading her pussy as by a hot guy stroking his cock. Despite this, I have never had any kind of sexual contact with another woman, and females usually play only a minor role in my fantasies. With this being the case, having sex with my girls when they’re teenagers (or older) isn’t something I normally think about.

What I do think about is how I’m going to approach the subject of sex with them. I don’t want to do what my mother did and teach them that sex is something to be avoided at all costs because it is fraught with nothing but danger. And I don’t want to instill the kind of hang-ups that were imposed on me when it comes to nudity. Conversely, I also don’t want to create an environment where everyone is running around the house naked (as fun as that might be), but I do want my girls to feel secure and safe enough to be naked around me without feeling any shame or self-consciousness. Of course, the flip side of that is me learning to be comfortable getting naked in front of them. In thinking it over, I obviously can’t just pop out nude on their 16th birthday and expect everyone to be okay with it. “Surprise! Who’s got two thumbs and a pussy? This mom!”

What I need to do is lay some of that groundwork now so that I can teach my girls that being naked (in the right context) is not only acceptable but that it feels good. It scares the hell out of me that I’m going to have to lead by example when it comes to this. Regardless, I’m acutely aware that it’s something I should start sooner rather than later, and so I’m currently trying to figure out the best way for me to be casually topless around them and see how that goes. Once they’re used to seeing Mommy’s tits, maybe then I can whip out my pussy as see how that goes over.

When it comes to my husband, that’s another area of concern for me. I have a difficult time envisioning him going along with being naked in front of our kids. And even if he was cool with it, I’m not sure I want to be the one to explain Daddy’s hard-on to them. Beyond this, I worry more about the girls and their father when they get older. I know that I had graphically sexual feelings for my dad when I was a teen, and yet I don’t know how I’d feel if I found out that they had the same kind of feelings for their father.

As much as I fantasized about my dad fucking me, I can’t say I want my husband to have sex with our daughters. I’d certainly understand it if they ever confessed such a desire, but I don’t think I could encourage them to act on those desires. Hypocritical? Maybe. I can’t say for sure, but even though it’s not something I wouldn’t want to happen, if it did I don’t know that I could be all together upset about it. Again, I think it would be a bad idea, but if one of my daughters came to me and admitted that she willingly sucked her father’s cock when they stayed up late watching a movie together the other night I’d like to think that I would at least understand.

Okay, so after all that hedging, here are a couple of things that I’ve thought about that I feel somewhat guilty about. First, when I try to play out what life might be like if I successfully teach them that it’s okay to be naked around me, and I learn the same lesson, there’s a particular scenario that keeps insinuating itself into my dirty mind. The image is of me and my two teen girls (they’re maybe 14 and 16ish) sitting on the floor naked and facing each other with our legs open and each of us masturbating while watching the other two. They’re all embarrassed giggles and everyone’s having fun. We race to see who can make herself cum first, or we try to time it so we all cum at the same time. Maybe my younger one finds my dildo and wants to know what it’s for. They watch wide-eyed with their fingers on their little clitties while Mommy spreads her legs and shows them how she likes to fuck herself with a big, fake cock. So wrong.

The other scenario that keeps coming unbidden to my mind is inviting one of the girls into my bedroom to watch me and her father have sex. She could be naked if she wanted to (she always is in my imagination), and she’d be allowed to watch me suck her father’s cock and lick his balls. I’d let her up on the bed with us so she could get as close a view as she wanted of her dad’s penis sliding into Mom’s vagina. She’d be masturbating unabashedly while she watched me get fucked and get my tits sucked. She’d be captivated by the sight of Daddy’s cum dribbling out of Mommy’s cunt, and even more amazed as she watched her father lick my pussy clean. She’d tell her sister all about it, and she would beg me to let her watch the next night. I’d be on top for that performance and my darling girl would have a front row seat to see her parents fuck like sweaty animals. Maybe I’d even let her see Daddy fuck my asshole while she fingered herself wildly. Of course, after that, we’d always leave our bedroom door open and they’d both come and watch whenever they wanted.

I don’t think either of those two things will ever really happen, but I have a strong feeling that my fantasies along these lines will only get more detailed and varied when they’re teens – especially when they start bringing hot, young guys home. I hope that answers at least some of your questions about where I’m at when it comes to my kids. And now that I’m all hot and bothered, I have to go meet the school bus…

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12 thoughts on “Dirty Daughters

  1. Rach

    Your comments are most interesting. I’ve often wondered if we, the wife and i had become swingers in our younger years if that would have influenced how we would have looked at sex with the girls, we had two as well.

    They weren’t raised in puritanical house but we didn’t run around naked either. I sometimes wish we were a bit free in our feelings toward nudity. I wonder how or if that would let the girls be way more open how they looked at sex not be afraid to openly talk about sex.

    I do know my a attitude toward sex has changed over the years. I am much more into porn than ever and after 3 years of philandering with many women I see no reason why couples shouldn’t be open about sex. I feel the couples that swing or open marriages keep the spice in their life more and there is less jealousy. I think it makes them live each even more. Their sex lives are definitely spicy.

    Just my thoughts. Gary

    I never fantasized about doing it with our girls but I sure did with their friends. Many of them would have been quite the playmates.

  2. What an incredibly frank and honest confession. Have two sons who, in their late teens, brought home some ravishing teens that really got the imagination and juices flowing….but never acted upon (my lucky sons, however!). I am continually impressed with your thoughts, writing style and candor. I’m like a junkie looking continually for my daily “Rachael fix”.

  3. very interesting. I have never had any sexual thoughts towards my daughters who are now out of the house and grown. I am now remarried after going through a divorce and my current wife has 2 lovely daughters one older who I never lived with and one younger who is now in college and who live with us while she was in middle school and high school. I admit to having sexual fantasies involving both of them which get me very hard and horny. I know nothing will ever cum of them but oh boy if they did!

  4. Hey Rachael. i’m new to your site, but i thought i just wanted to comment on this, since i think it’s an important topic. As much as the fantasies of incest can be a very big turn on where does the borders goes in real life? Me and my better half haven’t got children, but since we both love to read incest fantasies, we have talked about this a few times. I think is a great idea when you talk about laying down some groundwork. it’s okay to be self aware and it’s okay to be naked and feel good about it. After all isn’t that the environment we wish we had grown up in ourselfs?

    As a man i would be afraid to get a hard on in front of the kids and at the same time i know it will be important to be down to earth about it. If we don’t show them it’s okay, then how should they learn? I haven’t got a clue about how we are gonna do this when the time comes, but we will cross that bridge when we reach it.

    Thank you for expressing yourself in here and writing like you do. It’s both very inspiring, while it also gives food for thoughts :)

  5. Rachael, if I may submit a comment. I would suggest that you bathe with them. Let them get used to another naked body at bath time. My wife has done that with all three of our kids,(two boys, 9 and almost 15, and a girl, 12), up until they were old enough to bathe themselves. And now, they have no problem walking into the bathroom, be it to ask a question or use the bathroom, while she takes a bath. Or, have them in the bedroom with you when you are changing. That would be my suggestions for your children to become used to seeing you naked. That way, if you ever went topless through the house, it wouldn’t be a shock to them.
    While I have never thought about any of my kids in a sexual way, I have told my oldest son that it is okay to watch porn, (I have seen the browser history on the computer after he has been on it).

    Thank you for all your stories!

  6. From parent to parent and my kid several years older don’t over-think such things. Yes we as parents will face the common challenges in life, and also while our days of puberty and growing up as usual lead to certain events or/and desires does not mean our kids will hold the same. In short while we have fantasies and as such they are just fantasies. While I have talked via online with parents specifically mothers that took their fantasies into the real world that is a choice they made.

    I can’t say I agree or disagree with such choices for each person and situation there are many factors to consider. So I say this, just be logical, don’t over think things. Let fantasies be that, just fantasies. If life bring a fantasy or more into the real world then just be aware of what you area about to do and the repercussions of it. Perfect example a married woman fantasizing about exposing herself to the UPS guy and taking that fantasy to reality which resulted in guilt of cheating with her husband. I use that for while we share many fantasies that are on the border or illegal, doesn’t make us wrong or sick. For they are just fantasies. What distinguishes us from everyone else is we use the commonsense of right and wrong of what is okay to do for real and what is not.

    So while our children will experience the days and years of puberty, desires, and so on all we can do is help them. Be there, open minded, and let them know they can come to us for anything. I wouldn’t listen to those suggesting you take a shower with them for that is influence. Instead, if you find them naked or vice-versa just don’t make a big deal of it.

    I remember all the times I walked in on my mom with her robe wide open, boobs barely covered, and in her panties and me just staring and getting turned on by looking at her. My mom was no idiot but she also didn’t make a big deal of it and talked to me and didn’t bother covering up. I thank her for not making a big deal of it plus the visual.

    If you ever want to have a heart to heart you know how to reach me.

  7. My parents divorced when I was 10, shuttled back and forth alternating weeks. I never saw my daddy naked by plan, although I caught the occasional peek as I was growing up. Never talked about sex or knew my daddy had sex as I matured.

    Momma’s house was somewhat different. I knew she had boyfriends and I knew they had sex. I was in my early teens when I heard them. Probably 14 when momma and my sister and I walked in and out of our rooms/bathroom topless. I remember how jealous and curious I was about their bigger, curvier bodies and breasts. It wasn’t a parade or show, it was fairly mundane after a while. The biggest thrill was when the 3 of us tanned topless in the backyard, I was maybe 16, felt very grown-up and mature.

    Momma was very open about her sexuality and talked with us in detail about sex regularly. By the time we were active we generally shared our experiences with her, though I know I wasn’t completely honest with telling her the frequency of my sexual activities.

    I’d say I was/am very intimate emotionally with my sister and momma. They are both beautiful and desirable, however there was never an interest in my momma sexually, the intimacy was very special, but emotional vs sexual. My sister and I are close and had some sexual tension/attraction, but never acted on it beyond some experimtal kissing and touching. We did talk about sex and masturbate together, but that never went as far as touching each other. I think that barrier would be easier to cross than sex with my momma. My fantasies have involved my sister much more than my momma, and the infrequent daddy masturbation session.

    Abby

  8. Hi Rachael, interesting blog. Speaking as one with the child’s perspective and who has only in the last 2 years left home. I think the way my mum and stepdad treated the whole subject seemed to work. No we weren’t home nudists, but here was never any question of panicked cover-ups on their part. They were both content to act naturally, whatever their state of dress. At one house we had a hot tub which they both used naked (sharing with a couple of friends on the odd occasion). I never took the opportunity to join them naked, despite being tempted all the time. Similarly I didn’t walk round the house naked, mainly because I felt my mum wouldn’t be comfortable with my stepdad’s possible comparisons between our bodies. She’s 50 and I’m 20. Actually when he wasn’t around she and I would often (like everyday, when I’m there), sunbathe naked together. If Carl comes home i just slip some pants on or turn on my front. Yes I have seen him looking with interest, but to be honest no more than I look at his package through his shorts lol.
    I know something of their swinging activities from my sister who stumbled upon their secret years ago. It’s not something that has ever been discussed, what she has instilled in me is that sex is a fabulous gift that should be enjoyed and that there is no such thing as normal. If it feels good and hurts no-one, then enjoy. Would i have sex with them? In a heartbeat! When I was 13 I watched them having sex. Without their knowledge, I haste to add. The thought of being seduced and being enjoyed by them has fuelled many masturbation sessions, but its not something I could or would initiate. If it were to happen, I would be a happy bunny. Going to visit at Easter for a couple of weeks so really looking forward to it.
    I hope this ramble makes sense.
    Jay

  9. Once again I enjoy your open and honest discussion of your thoughts and the comments they generate. My personal opinion is the casual home nudity should be okay and maybe even encouraged. I think in our society we associate nudity with sex. As soon as the kids get around the age of 4 or 5 we start teaching them that letting anyone see you naked is bad. And I think that can lead to self image issues later.
    Learning to be naked in front of family has it’s advantages. You’re just about to step into the shower and you remember the new bottle of shampoo is out in the kitchen. So much easier to just go get it. And family vacation where all of you are sharing one room and one bathroom. So much easier if one can be in the shower while one is just out of the shower at the sink combing their hair while a third person is getting dressed in the room and everyone is there together.
    As for daughters and dad, that is going to be a bit of a change in mindset but sooner better than later. And with the girls growing up seeing dad naked it takes some of the naughtiness out of the equation when they get to be teens. “Oh ya, dads dick, big deal seen it million times, so what”.
    When it comes time to have “the talk” just think how much easier it will be when you have this more open relation about nudity with the kids.

    The main thing is as you state, if you’re going to do it now is the time before they get any older. Teach them from a young age that their body is not something to hide (and be ashamed of) in the family environment.

  10. I guess I’m a very lucky man when my kids were young my wife and I sat them down and had “THE TALK” they are 14 months apart in age . We tried our best to explain everything as through as possible and it seemed to work we never hid anything from them and I think being open and honest was the right way to handle things. We never ran around the nude but there were times you saw someone nude but we never made a big deal about it. So I’m sure that when it comes to the time when you’re ready for this talk you will handle it with ease…….

  11. Thank you Rachael for sharing this and your beautiful stories.
    I grew up in a very prudish family. I only saw my mother naked when spying on her through a bathroom keyhole. Consciously I don’t think I was particularly attracted to her but I did have very sexy dreams about her (the first and for a long time only sexual dreams I had). I started being interested in going nude when I was a teenager, and eventually did walk around the house nude in front of my parents a couple of times after asking and my mother saying she wouldn’t object. That didn’t last long though. Now my wife and I are nudists and do plan on raising our kids with casual nudity around the house. We feel strongly that they should never feel ashamed of their bodies or be uncomfortable baring them.
    Thank you so much for this wonderful site!

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