What the Hell Am I Doing?

Fucked if I know!

As everyone coming here from Lush Stories knows, the incest fantasy category was eliminated with extreme prejudice. The main reason I had joined the site in the first place was to share my highly indecent fantasies about my family and to explore other perversions that I could never experience in real life. Just when I was starting to get comfortable, they ripped the rug out from under me.

Hey, it’s their site, their rules. But what really upsets me is the way they went about it. The decision came out of nowhere, was executed virtually without warning, and was done in such a manner as to cast those of us who wrote for and enjoyed reading the incest category as despicable scum that they couldn’t wait to scrape off the bottom of their shoes. The insult was driven home by the sanctimonious attitude of the mods when questioned about this change, and the imperial stance of the owner on the topic – going so far as shutting down all community discussion of the move to summarily eliminate THE most popular story category on the site.

The Lords of Lush basically told us writers we could either shut up, stop bitching, and get to work writing for the other categories, or get the fuck out. A lot of readers asked me to stay at Lush and write stories in the remaining “morally acceptable” genres. I hate to disappoint my small (but growing) group of pervy friends, but I just can’t bring myself to do it. I feel very disrespected by Lush, as a writer and as a reader, and I don’t want to contribute free content to a for-profit business where they obviously find my sexual fantasies to be contemptibly odious.

So, where does that leave me? Looking for a new place to publish. A taller task than I had expected it to be. I’ve combed the interwebs and have yet to find just the right fit for me. Literotica is the next best option, but their 18 year old age limit on characters precludes me publishing any of the stories I’ve written so far. I could bump the ages of my characters up, but that would totally ruin the intended mood of the stories and come across as ridiculous for a bunch of 18 to 20 year olds running around discovering their sexuality for the first time. I looked at xnxx, storiesonline, xhamster and velvet9, but was put off by those for one reason or another. A few folks suggested some good story archive sites, but those felt a little too much like tossing your work out into the void – I’m not really into the social networking thing, but I would like there to be a community that interacts with the stories/authors through things like public comments, votes and PMs.

In the meantime, I decided to attempt to create this blog as a place for those Lush members who didn’t get a chance to read all of my stories to check them out. Although I’ve been distracted and upset about all this over the past week, I’ve still managed to do some nasty writing (check out the first chapter of My Daughter’s Dildo). It looks like I’ll be posting my new stories here until I decide what to do about publishing at a commercial site. Also, I was surprised by the number of people who told me how much they enjoyed and followed my silly little daily posts at Lush. I will try to continue the tradition here since that is what a blog is supposed to be for in the first place.

You’ll have to be patient with me as far as this site goes. I’m fairly capable when it comes to computers, but this is a bit beyond my technical experience. It’s taken a lot of trial and error for me to make it this far, but I think I’m starting to get a hang of it. I might be playing around with different blog themes, and there will likely be other changes as I figure out how everything works. If you see anything that is broken or could be better, please let me know.

Finally, I have to send out a huge hug to all of you who have supported and encouraged me these past couple months. It was a scary prospect for me to poke my head out of my shell and expose my deepest and dirtiest secrets for all to see. I know I’m hidden behind the sheltering veil of the internet, but putting your private thoughts out there to be examined and commented on puts you in a vulnerable place, even if no one knows who you really are. Thank you for all your love and kindness (and, of course, for all of your cum).

Hugz,
Rachael (a.k.a. DirtyMindedMom)

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11 thoughts on “What the Hell Am I Doing?

  1. Glad I found you. Enjoyed the stories of yours I’ve read. Look forward to reading more, keep writing. I left you something you might like on lush. Have a great day and please don’t forget me. Hugs and kisses !! Love, Tony

  2. Hi Rachael-

    First of all let me say that I am glad you found a place to post your wonderful stories.

    Second of all and most important, let me take this opportunity to apologize to you for an email I sent you. I hope you know how I feel about you and your writing. I may be your biggest fan. I love the incest stories and write them myself, and I also love your daily posts about your sex life. There is something about your openness and your candor that is so irresistable :)

    I made the mistake of suggesting that you suck up to Lush and write in other categories, I was so wrong. It is the incest stories you write that turn me on so much, and I want to read more of them. You know how much I look forward to the second installment of your brother/sister story.

    Again, I hope you will forgive me and I hope we can still be friends. I am so glad you found a place where you can express yourself and I will follow you anywhere :)

    Jack

  3. A tip of the hat and a blown kiss to my new friend Dirty Minded Mom for her sassy, steamy new website! Well done, Rachael… you may think of this as a humble beginning, but it looks great to me. How satisfying it is to know that, despite the efforts of the moral arbiters of Lush, your erotic fiction has a home once more. Life is good.

    Your kinky comrade, JetBoy (formerly known as Frenchtoastman)

  4. So happy I found you. I hope you sent this previous letter to the lush officials . I love your stories, your one of the best writers there.
    Most of my friends on lush wright incest fanisty and there all going different places.ill stay on lush to follow my friends where ever they land. Thanks for the link to where your at. As long as you have a dirty mind and tell us about them ill follow you anywhere! Xoxo jerry

  5. So happy that you found a place that allows you to express your dirty side without any limitations. I look forward to many more stories from you. Also loved being able to live vicariously through your daily updates about your sex life! Have a great day and thanks for doing this.

  6. Good evening Rachael.
    As an analogue engineer, who grew up with encyclopaedias, slide-rules and typewriters, I’m still coming to grips with all that the internet beholds.
    I’m still trying to fathom the thought process of the Mods at ‘Lush’. I can’t understand their reasoning when they still allow graphic videos of multiple partners, unprotected intercourse and other topics that some people would consider to be too off-beat.
    I left a rambling message at ‘Lush’ and at the same time followed the thread to your blog.
    It’s a pity that you can’t get literotica to publish your stories, but as you stated, the young ones are starting to indulge earlier and earlier in life and the stories wouldn’t have the same impact.
    Keep up with your literary endeavours and don’t let the ‘Fun Police’ deny the enjoyment.
    Take care, travel safe.
    Ian Malcolm

  7. I’m in with you all the way. I just got to Lush about 3 weeks ago and was totally surprised by the ban on Incest. WTF they have a BDSM catergory where people get the shit knocked out of them and the sex can turn bloody. I can’t figure out the upsurge of censoring on Incest. By far I believe it is the most prevalent fantasy of men–the Oedipus Complex is in all of us. Second most shining example is sons and daughters fucking parents.

    I will start writing here–I’ve contacted you in multiple places I want to be your buddy here, have you follow me on Twitter and befriend me at Lush. I won’t leave there because I have some poems I want to dangle out there. One I have there is really an incest poem but they are a bit dense and can’t see it. One friend there has and I found out she masturbated to it. That’s what I want to turn on my audience either through masturbation of driving their sex lives with their partner, male or female

    jaycox

  8. Hi, I have to agree with you, When reading stories on Lush, About incest, They just arent believable, Nobodies 18 when they have their 1st incest encounter, Love your stories, Gary
    PS, I cantr write but maybe you could think one up for me, I was 13 when I lost my cherry and it was a thgreesome with a 26 year old woman and her 45 year old boyfriend, Thanks

  9. I was surprised at what happened at Lush also. I got kicked off like so many others without knowing what I did till I got an email about it. What happened? New owners? Anyway they lost a lot of people. What happened is that I did go back once to look around and see if they went back and saw your old profile and followed you here. (I wouldn’t have had to if you had taken my candy and got into daddy’s new van.) I really like your site and hope that you will allow me to add a story or two to it. I enjoy the pictures and stories and blog and think that you would be every boy and girls perfect idea of a very naughty mommy. Ummm. Keep up the good work. And by the way if you would like me to get into your van……

  10. Thank you for putting up a site that lets you talk about other things other than the straight and narrow of Lush.

  11. Well, I am very happy you started this blog. Similarly to your story, I began by publishing on XNXX, which began as a great repository for stories. However, because I had had very early sexual experiences in my life, and those experiences effected my writing, I found I could no longer post there because my content includes young people exploring their sexuality. I hadn’t been aware of Lush before they ejected incest themes, but that also has been a big part of my stories.

    Despite the controversial nature of adolescent sexuality, I was proud of those stories. They reflected real truths through fictional narratives and were genuine expressions of the human condition. I was sad that I could no longer publish them. So, I looked for a new forum and it took me years to find one.

    I had very specific criteria for a place I wanted to have my writing seen. It had to be a place with a community (Which Rachel has built here) and it had to have a high standard for what was published. (Which Rachel has clearly maintained) I was looking for a place with similar work and earnest discussion and I’m glad to have found it here.

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